In the vein of Friday is for Fotos and Thumbs-up Thursday, a new tradition is going to begin, Wednesday is for One Year. I am going to attempt to create a post every Wednesday pertaining to our One Year Bible reading. I want to encourage others, particularly those at EBC, to feel free to leave comments about your thoughts from the weeks reading.
“Who Am I”
My best friends father sought to kill me. My best friend died an early death. My promised wife was given to another man. I am a man of bloodshed. I had a man murdered. I committed adultery. My infant son died at seven days old. One of my son committed rape. This son was murdered by another of my sons. This son sought to overthrow me and kill me. I am the Lord’s anointed. I am a man after God’s own heart. I am blessed by God and my family has God’s promise to endure forever. God’s love will never be taken away from my family.It is obvious that this is David, but it is sometimes confusing to put the sins and despair with the blessings and godliness of this man. The beginning statement is not really meant as a guessing game, but it is David’s prayer to God in 2 Samuel 7:18-19,

“Who am I, O Sovereign LORD, and what is my family, that you have brought me this far? And as if this were not enough in your sight, O Sovereign LORD, you have also spoken about the future of the house of your servant. Is this your usual way of dealing with man, O Sovereign LORD?”

As I try to reconcile God’s blessing on David, and David being a man after God’s own heart with his sin and despair, I keep coming back to this line, “Who am I?” What humility. After David’s son died because of David’s sin what did he do? He worshiped God. What humility. As a mighty warrior after he has been seated on the throne, what is his reply to his success? ‘Who am I? Do you normally deal with man this way?’ He was a man, a created being blessed my God. Sure difficulty came, but he did not lose sight of who he was, God’s creature. We cannot lose sight of this fact either, David was a man, but he truly loved and worshiped God. He is a reminder that as a child of God our sin has consequences but does not separate us from the love of God. He is a reminder that blessings from God are undeserved by any man. Therefore, we should praise God louder for our blessings than we groan for our despair. Despair is rightfully deserved by man, blessing is all of grace.